Even the case of this weekend's issue with tummy bugs which caused
me to stay near the bathroom and in bed, I felt bad that I was not able
to do much of anything except lay down.And I felt really bad for missing participating in Effy's blog along, even though I knew you'd understand.
So I silently took care of myself until I could return to my regularly scheduled blog participation.
I've always been like that...preferring scheduled ordered things to the chaos some times necessary in creating a life. It takes me a long time to get started on things...a long time to commit to a path. But once I do I go full steam ahead. The downside is that it usually takes me a long time to get started back up again.
And I'm learning to accept that as part of what makes me...well me.
I beat myself up about that for a really long time...like years. until I learned about my astrological chart from a shamanic perspective. I have a ton of earth signs in my chart which means of course it would take me a long time to shift into gear! Earthquakes, landslides, volcanoes...fast moving earth can be a scary thing!
Learning about Shamanic Astrology has helped me to understand how the astrological archetypes work and play with each other to make the magnificent being that is me. It's helped me embrace all those parts of me I once thought to be a nuisance.
It's been a gift to understanding myself more deeply and I'm looking forward to putting together classes to teach other people how to use this gift as well.