and though my plans are made and ready
my stomach still flutters
~ On Beginnings (a haiku by me)
I wanted to acknowledge those nervous flutters that usually accompany starting
something new because those flutters are every bit a part of the homeschool (or any other)
And denying or ignoring them has only served to make them stronger in the past.
I took a deep breath and wrote down how I was feeling. Once again (to my surprise) that
little bit of acknowledgement helped me move through it with so much grace and ease I didn't
even consider it until I sat down to share this with you.
Somewhere in the back of my mind I thought that once you get skilled at something
the fluttery fear goes away. But I'm discovering the fluttery fear stays and while it can
be a good thing (because I know it means there's a desire to do my best) in the past
I've used it to keep me from going forward.
So I'm putting this here as a reminder
why not acknowledge the fear of other things ...like coming back to this page after having a
world rocking experience with blogging?
And just like that the words I want to share today flow out of me...not as orderly as my critical
mind would like them to be but I don't mind mining for gems.
They are hidden beneath the fear.