on this cold winter morning, his coat barely buttoned
against the cold as we headed into the coffee shop.
We placed our order then found a seat next to the fire,
more for my benefit than his. "You scare me" I said
looking down in to the coffee's depths as I wrapped
my fingers around the cup letting the warmth work it's
way through my fingers and thawing my skin.
"I'm only here at your request. I want to teach you
how to live from a place of openness." he stated plainly.
"I know" I said with the cup to my lips drinking deeply
letting the cup linger by my lips, " that's what scares me."
We sat quietly for a long time after that listening to the
crackling of the wood as fire consumed it.
"So you've decided?" he askes leaning forward to take
my hand in his. I sighed. "Yes, I'm ready." He smiled
warmly at me as I looked into his eyes."Then let's get started."
So began my relationship with my word for 2013.
I've been working with words to guide me for the last 3 years
but this time it was different. The word that chose me felt as though it needed a different approach. Instead of using
journaling prompts about what this word would bring to
my life and what my life would look like if I fully embraced this word, I used creative journaling to write a story about my word.
I took my journal out for coffee a few days before Winter Solstice and begain to visualize what it would be like to have my word sitting at the table with me. Using all my senses to describe
my word, I was most surprised when I discovered my word 'felt' masculine to me. From there I had a long conversation with
my word, telling him what I wanted from this year and listening
for what he was wanting me to know as we started.
The results were palpable as I journaled fast and furious not noticing time passing around me. By the time I looked up from the page, hours had passed and I came away with a clear sense that I needed to have something I could wear to keep my word close to me.
And for now I continue to date my word taking it out once
a week exploring the story of this relationship as it develops.