Because she was afraid, she did not ask for things she really wanted.
She thought the word 'no' meant she was of less value
And she would rather tell herself it didn't matter than to have someone tell her 'no'
She even stopped asking Goddess/God/Great Spirit anything
Because she feared rejection above all else.
Rejection of her uniqueness
Rejection of her beauty
Rejection of who she was
So she lived like that for many, many years until one day
She got tired of feeling like her dreams didn't matter.
And she learned the word 'no' wasn't a rejection of her uniqueness
or her beauty or who she was..
She learned a 'no' from Goddess/God/Great Spirit only meant it
wasn't time yet...
And a 'no' from people meant they weren't interested in what she had to offer but it did not reflect on her
She worked very hard to hear what was really behind the 'no' when she heard it.
As she worked on hearing behind the 'no', she started having deeper conversations with Goddess/God/Great Spirit.
She started seeing all the little pieces of trainings that she'd taken over the years come together in one place.
She grew more confident in herself and her abilities
And started creating products that she herself would like to have on her journey.
Then Goddess/God/Great Spirit spoke to her through others as the divine often did
And asked her "What do you wish to ask for?"
She sat quietly for a while and listened to her heart beat.
Then she spoke.
"I wish to ask for my next steps" she replied, "and I wish to ask for confirmation that I'm moving in the right direction. I have no idea what I'm doing so I'm just following my heart."
Goddess/God/Great smiled at her response and said "that's where I reside dearest."
Sanctuary for the Soul~
how to throw a personal tea party & reclaim your spirit
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