Maybe it's because I want to write something marvelous and thought provoking...something really honest and amazing.
Or maybe it just because Spring and the magic of Beltane is calling me to be out in the natural world (I no longer own a laptop but that's a very sad tale of woe).
Whatever it is, I've been starting and deleting posts for several hours now. I want to write...there are words that want to come out. I decided I'd strong arm myself to sit down and write.
So here I sit, staring at the blank post screen and feeling like I'm beating myself with a cat o' nine tails trying to force the words to come out.
Frustrated with not one word of value coming, I left my computer to put the kettle on to boil, pulled out my favortie chai blend (a white chai w/ayurvedic chai) of loose tea and waited for the water to get to the right temperature.
Waited and listened...
Listened and waited...
Listened to my breath change from short and shallow to long and deep.
Listened to the water as the sound subtly changed from still to very active as it began to boil.
And just like that it became clear.
You see no matter how much I want the water to boil there is nothing I can do to make it boil any faster than its own timing will allow it to.
Sure I can turn up the heat source underneath it or put a lid on the kettle but it still will only reach boiling point when it's ready.
And as I pour the hot water over the tea, the leaves will only infuse the water with it's liquid healing in it's own time
It's all organic timing.
So what if I just stopped trying to force writing to happen and start writing from where I am at right now...just allowing my words to come like I waited for the sound of water at a rolling boil?
What about you? How many times have you tried to force something to happen when it really needed it's organic timing to fully develop?
What is going on with you right now that can benefit from your waiting and listening to your own inner guidance for it to develop?
As I type these words I hear the timer telling me my liquid healing guide is ready to be savored. The writing has come in only 5 minutes...all in it's organic time.
May you find something of value in organic timing too.