to write about it I almost wished I had taken
some 'before' pictures of my shameful secret but truthfully, I was too embarrassed. And if I need
a reminder, I can always look at the background of
almost every picture I've taken in the last few years and beyond.
In letting go of so much...stuff there were so many lessons that have come
through for me:
I learned in holding on to stuff I didn't love,
I was using my I AM spells against myself.
The truth is I AM a very organized person.
I just needed to find my own way.
I learned it takes less energy to maintain things
I love than keeping things just in case.
This physical purge was also a mental purge as I let go of
the fear based thinking and filled the space with trust that
whatever happens, I will have the resources and support
I need to see me through whatever comes up.
I learned I have more space in my day to celebrate
my mother's memory with pictures and things of hers
that not only hold her essence for me but are things I truly love.
In letting go of stuff, I let go of the mommy guilt
I had around what I 'should' be able to do. I have
a clear knowing of what I can and can't do. And
it's all perfect.
I learned for me there is a difference between
giving up and surrendering.
I learned holding on to things was one way I blocked my
own creativity. In freeing myself of the stuff, I gave myself
permission to create and share my gifts with the world.
I'm sure as we move into Mercury Retrograde on Saturday
there will be loads more lessons but I am not feeling so much
more open to the process now than I have been in the past.