"That's a nice dream but you really need to know how to write songs and play an instrument because singers are a dime a dozen. You'd be better off if having something to fall back on."
I trusted what my mom was saying. She wanted me to be safe and cared for.
But in her words I also heard what my inner critics were secretly telling me in whispers
just below the surface (you don't have what it takes...you're not good enough...you'll never make it...)
I stopped singing and the search for something to fall back on began.
That search would last for years.
words again from well meaning inner critics who take me all the way back to that tender hearted teenage girl who shared the sprout of a dream in the hopes of finding nourishment for it and for herself.
But this time it's different.
This time the teenage me and her dream sprout has adult me by her side.
This adult me knows how to take a hit, get up and keep going.
This adult me has tools in her bag to move through those not enough voices.
This adult me knows how to nourish her and her dream.
I'm protecting her big dream like a mama bear protects her cubs.
I'm being the me my teenaged self needed.
I'm being my own hero.
I begin by creating a safe cozy space within. I invite the elements in to play with her as she tries
new things. She's a bit shy at first having been surrounded by fear and doubt all this time but slowly she starts to reach out and touch those fear balloons and as she does they pop showering her with the golden light of truth...you are enough...you do have what it takes...you will make it...keep going.
She softens into these flecks of light and merges with the adult me of now.
Together we keep moving and growing into the me of the future.
The me I am destined to be.
I invite you to have a conversation with the teenage you and her dreams. Make her a cup of tea and talk to her what her dreams were then and what stopped her from achieving them. Then share with her how you, the adult you, will support your dreams when things get tough. Allow her to pop those balloons of fear and doubt and be showered with the truth...your truths. And if you'd like support doing this work, I'm available for coaching sessions.