it became clear to me that though I speak of trust
in Goddess to provide for me, I hold on to
stuff just in case I'll need it later.
That 'just in case' thought? It is a fear based stance.
'Just in case' means I don't believe I'll be able to have my needs
met and don't truly trust Goddess' infinite supply of blessings.
This week, I've taken a leap of faith and started to let go
of more stuff with an intention.
By letting go of stuff and simplifying, I consciously create space
for my big dreams to come into my life. As I simplify my surroundings
keeping and maintaining only the things I love most, I consciously open to
all the wishes or anything better in alignment with my highest good to manifest
in my life right now.
With those words driving me, off I went to be really present with these
things to decide whether I keep them out of love or fear. If they are feeding
my fear, I let the go. If I truly love them they stay.
Nothing was spared in this purge...not even craft supplies in the
Magic Emporium or the stuff I still hold onto out of love for my
mom's memory. I can keep the memory of her love shining brightest
in the vast space of my heart.
Some things I've easily put in the donation bag while others, I've shed
fear filled tears over as I let go. The tears were coming from my Inner Critic
being so afraid of letting go. "I love you dearly and this will all be okay"
I assured her as I looked deeply into my eyes.
Funny thing happened as I was doing this.
Coinage started showing up.
With each space cleared, I found all sorts of change.
Each time, I held it up and said 'Thank you, I am one step
closer to the financial freedom I seek."
It's taken several hours over 3 days to get all 4 upstairs rooms clear.
This morning I woke up to bird song at 6:45. I took the opportunity
to walk through these rooms while every one was sleeping. The tears
that stroll down my face today are tears of joy.
Finally the spaciousness and love I feel inside is reflected outside.
It's all starting to Emerge.