I feel you holding me back from doing some of the things
that need to get done. What are you showing up as today?
Fear? Uncertainty? Worry? Not enoughness? All of these
and maybe a little something else?
I acknowledge you are there trying to keep me safe.
I understand you're trying to protect me from showing my
vulnerability so that I won't have my feelings hurt. It feels so scary
to put myself out there. But right now I'm remember what we discovered
while walking on the beach.
We discovered the truth.
And since we know the truth, we're going to let all the things
inside of us come out and not hold back any of it.
We're going to show up in all of our bigness
So it's totally okay for you to go into this lovely purple room
and curl up on the red velvet couch I put in there especially for you.
Here are some crayons and the softest blank paper in the world and
the most fun coloring books for you.
And whenever your ready there's your favorite tea and the most delicious
scones on the tea waiter by the fire place. And if you choose to take a nap,
I'll cover you with softest hand knit blanket...the one made out of the chunkiest
Malabrigo yarn in a dye lot especially mixed for you.
When I knit it for you I weaved in spells and incantations to reassure
you that we are safe, we are supported, we are loved and we are accepted
in doing this big big work.
As we go along, I promise I will create containers of safety around you.
I'll use druming and dancing and getting out into nature to shift stuff
and reassure you of your beauty. I'll make sure that you know that no
matter what, my worth is not tied up around any of the things I create to
share with others.
We are worthy...I am worthy of all the things I am working towards.
That truth feels like freedom my friend. And I promise to keep stepping
into that truth. I'll keep seeking support and holding the image of what it feels
like to be free.
So rest dear resistance...you've done your job
and now it's time for me to do mine.
If you're interested in finding a deeper connection to the elements in a simple yet profound way, I invite you to participate in the fall session of
The Way of Tea starting September 17.