One of the things I want to do this year is to make weekly videos for
my you tube channel Goddess Tea House. I'll be picking themes
every month and exploring what comes up
for me to share with you. To support my revamped focus,
my uber talented daughter Josephine has animated an opening for me.
I am so blown away by how well she captured the feeling I wanted to convey.
My theme for March is Awakenings and in this episode
I'll share some tips on how to respond when old behavior
patterns are awakened with a brief guided meditation
with Archangel Michael. Hope you enjoy.
Processing and accepting a loved one's death puts me in
such a contemplative frame of mind as if each thought is
a precious jewel waiting to be collected.
While honoring my father in law's life by listening to the stories
his friends shared, I had a lot of new thoughts emerge.
His stories served to remind me that I don't want to allow
fears to stop me from living my life to the fullest any more.
Now Jamie has asked what do you wish to rise above?
When I first sat with this of course I thought of
Dr. Maya Angelou's most excellent poem which I read again
And I feel deep gratitude for those who have gone before me
My journey is easy compared to all the sacrifices they had to
make. In honor of their struggles, I continue my work.
Sun break through Bamboo
I wish to continue to rise above the fears of my own light. I wish to continue to rise above them and shine.
The false sense of safety I've clung to has led me to my deepest regrets for the steps not taken and the experiences I didn't have.
It's a prescription for a life half lived...not what I want my life to amount to.
In aligning myself with EMERGE, my word of the year,
I found this quote from William Stafford;
"I embrace emerging experience.
I participate in discovery.
I am a butterfly.
I am not a butterfly collector.
I want the experience of the butterfly"
I think my experiences this month have brought me a new depth
of understanding for my word of the year and a new determination to
rise above playing small. I feel ready and willing to boldly go where my word takes me.
BTW...I tip my geek hat to you if you caught my Star Trek reference!
Last weekend was spent packed in my car hurriedly driving to Texas.Texas Wildflowers
On Ostara we honored my father in law's life,
reconnected with old friends and made new connection
with family we'd never met before.
It was a particularly emotionally draining trip.
A trip that was sure to turn ugly if it had not been
for one thing...I set the intention to be a JOY seeker.
I found joy in my niece and nephew as they called me Auntie
Found joy in sharing a cup of coffee with my sister in law
And I found joy in the stories my father in law's
friends shared in talking about him.
By the new moon we were again packed in my car
hurriedly driving back to Georgia. We started making
frequent stops to take pictures of the wildflowers.
Because even when things feel strange or difficult
and look dark, we chose to see goodness and beauty.
And as I stopped I felt a blessing come bubbling up
May Goddess wipe your tears and fill your eyes
with visions of joy to guide you through your darkest days.
May Goddess pour her beauty into you filling
the chips and cracks left by life's harshest lessons.
And may you be reminded you are spirit in body...you are Goddess
I've been sitting with Jamie's wishcasting question for a little while now.
It's really interesting this question comes right on the heels of my
father in law's passing.
And Project Past Life is bringing up so many memories of my life
when we lived in Germany and Italy nearly 10 years ago.
I'm awash with memories of the past while trying to stay present as
I move toward the future.
The Path to the Future
I feel like 'future' is this mystical place like Avalon.
We look forward to it but never really get to because it's always just ahead of us. It can be broken down into long term as in where I see myself in XX years or it can be short term as in I see waffles being made for me by my son in the future...ah but it's happening now so that future is nearly the present already!
What do I wish for my future?
I wish to move into all the areas of my life with a boldness that attracts
the attention of the Gods and live the width and length of my life.
To me that means, living each day I'm given with courage and strength
to pursue the big dreams and make them come true in a way that is in
alinement with my core values, and to cultivate a childlike sense of wonder
and gratitude for everything I experience...even the 'mundane' things like
the piles of laundry sitting in my room.
I wish to forgive myself and others easily and accept everyone in their
imperfect perfection. And I wish to remember that joy is always an option as
I move toward this mystical future place.
My father in law passed beyond the veil last Friday.
And while we weren't close, I find I'm profoundly feeling
his absence as I look at my husband and children.
The part of his story that intertwines with our story has ended.
But slowly and surely we must move on.
With this well of sadness opening up inside of me
I felt compelled to spend as much of the weekend
in silence. And when Monday dawned I felt the tears
come raining down as I realized that it would have
been my mother's birthday and how slowly and surely
we have moved on from her part in our story as well.
Today, I light a candle to remember and honor all of
those who's stories were a part of mine. Thank you
for the lessons, the laughter and the love.
May we treat ourselves with as much grace and ease
as we continue on in this life.
I'm Dionne, a Natural Rhythms Creation Coach and Elemental Forces of Creation Oracle Reader. I teach people how to tune into to the power of the elements and rhythms of nature to design a life they love