I love to travel. Seeing all sorts of different
places and sights makes me seriously happy.
I'm always looking for an opportunity
to do a weekend get away.
If I haven't been on a road trip in a few months
I get antsy. Being able to pack up and just leave at a moment's notice is another reason why I love home schooling
And yet I loathe moving...with a passion
In the last 15 years, we've moved no less than 5 times. That's an average of a move
every 3 years. Not all that surprising for a military family. It comes with the job...but
I'm sick to death of it. I thought once hubby was out of active duty we'd actually find a place of our own and put down some roots. Well hubby's been out for the last few years and we're still moving.
In fact we've been in the house we're renting now for 3 years.
Guess what's due to happen at the end of the year?
When Jamie asked What is your spirit wishing for?
I knew immediately what my spirit would say.
My spirit wishes for a house.
Not just any house my own home.
My spirit longs for a place of my own where my body can live and my heart
can dream. A base of operations to come back to after visiting other places.
For walls I can paint any color I want and rooms I can make any improvement
on without worrying about trying to get a deposit back. I long to get to know
neighbors and maybe invite some of them over for parties and have kids my son's
age come over to play in my backyard.
And a backyard! I long for a nice sized backyard to be able to really garden and have a playground set for my kiddo. Oh! I'd love to have a really old tree in my backyard for a tire swing!
Some place not to big. Where we all get that feeling of sanctuary and connection. We haven't found it yet, but I'm optimistically hopeful our home will make it self known really soon.
Project Past Life has taken on a 'life' all it's own. What started as a way to
remember my parents has turned into treasured family time as each picture
we've looked out triggered a memory. We started out by pulling out all the
pictures from one box and sorting them into different categories; ancestor photos,
my childhood, life in Germany, and recent past.
Sorting this way is giving me an idea of how many albums I may need and quite
frankly, has made me feel a little overwhelmed with getting them all done.
For now, I'm giving myself permission just to focus on our time living in Germany
and very specifically my parent's visit to us then.
This process has brought up another level of sadness. We were overseas from
1999-2003 and I remember being so excited about my ﬁrst home computer I keep
a journal mainly on ﬂoppy discs at that time. I had hoped to make use of them
during this process.
Unfortunately, they got wet and the ﬁles were corrupted.
Checking my old email accounts, they only go back to 2003,
so nearly all of my writing from my life in Italy and Germany is lost.
I started talking about what I knew of most pictures
I wrote it down what I remembered on a post it note and stuck it to the back.
Surprisingly there were a lot of memories.
A squeal of excitement brought my husband in to what we were doing.
I told him of Project Past Life and showed him the pictures we got to take
with Star Trek (the original series) star George Takei came to visit our post.
I don't remember much about his speech but I do remember how generous
with his time he was in talking to Josephine who was 9 at the time.
Lyle was in Iraq at the time and Mr. Takei autographed a picture speciﬁcally
for him to thank him for his service. Just looking at these pictures spun us into
a conversation about the other Star Trek conventions and stars we had met.
It's interesting to note how much of a difference Josephine's childhood was
as compared to my Lil' Bear. While we can't give him the experience of living in a 2
foreign countries for 5 years, it does make me want to double my efforts to give
him some amazing life experiences too.
Looking at those pictures, I can't believe what an amazing life I had.
What an amazing life I' am STILL having.
I started the practice of choosing a word of the year several years ago.
Looking back I am surprised at how my word unfolded differently than
I expected and yet not at all surprising.
Unlike previous years, my word for this year came to me as a great surprise.
And though I wrote about it in my personal journals, I never talked about it here
because quite frankly the word scares me.
It scares me because it contains an opportunity to change...something which I
continue to struggle with as I'm sure many of you do.
Because of that fear of change, I really felt called to be quiet with it and
let my word teach me a few things before I shared it.
So what is my word for 2012?
I created this wordle using synonyms when my word made it's presence known.
I made several different versions and hung it in places where I would see it
many times a day.
3 months into this new year as I check in with myself about how things are
unfolding, the word I was so private about has been taking a different shape
than my fear riddled brain could imagine for it.
Emergence has been ﬁlled with far more grace and ease than I imagined.
I feel positively giddy with excitement with all that has come forth
I want to acknowledge this...celebrate it.
And why not? There is so much to celebrate!
Let's make a list shall we?
Grief has lifted it's heavy veil and I feel as though I'm truly emerging from
a deep dark sleep. I ﬁnd myself looking forward to my mom's birthday this
month with great joy despite still missing her presence.
Starting Project Past Life is growing into a wonderful family bonding experience
as pictures and stories from our family's life together are emerging after nearly
10 years being stuffed in a footlocker unloved and unremembered.
And this website continues to emerge, grow and evolve!
New online workshops, meditations and product are emerging
from my creative cauldron just waiting to be shared.
I still love sharing and growing this space with y'all...that's 'you all' in the
US Southern dialect. See? Even my southern is emerging!
The more I EMERGE and share myself with you here, the more gifts I have to celebrate.
I want to send each of you who've read my blog, responded to posts, and
subscribed to my newsletter the most deep and sincere gratitude.
I'm Dionne, a Natural Rhythms Creation Coach and Elemental Forces of Creation Oracle Reader. I teach people how to tune into to the power of the elements and rhythms of nature to design a life they love