Hello Resistance my old friend
I feel you holding me back from doing some of the things 
that need to get done.  What are you showing up as today?  
Fear?  Uncertainty?  Worry?  Not enoughness? All of these 
and maybe a little something else?  

It's okay.  

I acknowledge you are there trying to keep me safe.
I understand you're trying to protect me from showing my 
vulnerability so that I won't have my feelings hurt.  It feels so scary 
to put myself out there. But right now I'm remember what we discovered 
while walking on the beach.

We discovered the truth.  

And since we know the truth, we're going to let all the things
inside of us come out and not hold back any of it.  
We're going to show up in all of our bigness 

So it's totally okay for you to go into this lovely purple room
and curl up on the red velvet couch I put in there especially for you.  
Here are some crayons and the softest blank paper in the world and 
the most fun coloring books for you.  

And whenever your ready there's your favorite tea and the most delicious 
scones on the tea waiter by the fire place.  And if you choose to take a nap, 
I'll cover you with softest hand knit blanket...the one made out of the chunkiest 
Malabrigo yarn in a dye lot especially mixed for you.  

When I knit it for you I weaved in spells and incantations to reassure 
you that we are safe, we are supported, we are loved and we are accepted
in doing this big big work.  

As we go along, I promise I will create containers of safety around you.  

I'll use druming and dancing and getting out into nature to shift stuff 
and reassure you of your beauty.  I'll make sure that you know that no 
matter what, my worth is not tied up around any of the things I create to 
share with others.  

We are worthy...I am worthy of all the things I am working towards. 
That truth feels like freedom my friend.  And I promise to keep stepping 
into that truth.  I'll keep seeking support and holding the image of what it feels 
like to be free.  

So rest dear resistance...you've done your job 
and now it's time for me to do mine.

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If you're interested in finding a deeper connection to the elements in a simple yet profound way, I invite you to participate in the fall session of 
The Way of Tea starting September 17.

A friend of mine is about to deliver her fourth child. Her baby shower is tomorrow and instead of just writing out good wishes in a book I thought it would be great to give her some prayer flags with our wishes for her on them so she can hang them up and know that we are with her in spirit encouraging her. So when I checked today's wish cast Wednesday question I had to smile.

What do I wish to share?

I wish to share love and peace and joy with my friend and with all mamas who are choosing natural child birth after choosing other ways prior. I wish to share with them how much I believe in them and their body's ability to do what it was designed to do even after man's intervention. And I wish to share with them that no matter how their birth experience is, it is exactly right for them.

While creating The Way of Tea (registration is open by the way)
I ran into this space over and over again.  Finally I wrote a letter to myself about it.    I hope it helps you too.

Here you are again.  
That place that always seems to crop up when you least expect it.  
Here you are making your merry way on the road to creating sharing
your gifts and you hit the wall; a space made up of fear and 
limiting beliefs spackled together with inner critic glue. 

It seems like each time you push past one piece of the wall
it changes positions.  You know some of the triggers that make 
you more susceptible the wall; too much caffeine, unhealthy food, 
not enough sleep or  being around people that drain the joy out of you. 
Most days you do your best to avoid these traps but occasionally you 
smack face first into the wall. 

And it sucks. 

But guess what?
You're still on the right path!

This wall of suck is just a false alarm!
And you are a magical being!  
You can make this wall crumble if you just 
remember a couple of things.  

This is part of your process.   These feeling 
and fearful stuck suckness have come up for healing.  
Feel your feelings...super important because unexpressed feeling makes inner critic glue stronger. 

Thing Two.  You don't have to keep your face smooshed against the suck wall.  You can choose 
your response.  Go for a walk, , take a nap, dance, 
drink a glass of water.

Bang a gong...just don't do what the fear suck says
that's the key to defeating it.

More often than not at the bottom of that suck wall are seeds 
for a beanstalk of hope and ideas just waiting for you to use 
your magic to help it grow.  

Grow your magic beanstalk.  Propel yourself  over the wall. 

Breathing here and now.

With this breath in...all will be well.

With this breath out...inner blockages are being removed 

With this breath in...focused like a hummingbird on all the
sweetness 

With this breath out...fears and criticism are smoothed out.

With this breath in...reconnect with Divine essence 
and infused by

Goddess Athena with wisdom

Goddess Bast with a playful spirit

Goddess Isis with the gift of magic

Goddess Kuan Yin with a heart full of compassion

With Mercury in Retrograde, I really hesitated 
on answering today's wish casting question. I firmly 
believe Mercury is bringing the way we communicate 
with ourselves, others and the world to light with the little 
problems that tend to crop up during this time.

During Mercury in retrograde my inner critic tends to 
get really active with its attempts to sabotage my forward 
momentum.

To balance this time we're also in the new moon window 
This is when I normally dream of what I want my month to 
look like. With the new moon in Cancer it's all about what 
needs to be nurtured.

This brings me back to Jamie's question
Given all these considerations
What do I  wish to start?

I wish to start applying the tools i have to quiet dismantle
the arguments my inner critic has for keeping me small. 
I wish to start paying closer attention to how I need to 
support myself emotionally when challenges arise.
And during those challenging times I wish to start listening 
to the uncertainty I feel for what its trying to teach me.

And I wish to start this by paying attention to my breath.