Dear 43 Year Old Me,

On my last day of being you, I didn't recognize myself reflected in the mirror today. The white flecks of wisdom dotting my once noir hair tell the story of how much you've changed me.  You have been a year of shedding the old to make way for the new. My trust and faith have been tested so many times, yet I continued to move forward; sometimes in great strides, other times at a crawl but always forward. Because of your training, I've stopped looking for something to fall back on choosing to make adjustments along the way instead. 

This shedding you've moved me through has felt profound yet not at all how I've experienced it in the past.  I didn't know it could be this way.  It felt easy...almost too easy,  When it did, I made the shedding harder than it needed to be to make my dreams and goals feel more heroic.  You taught me my (parenting/home-schooling/business/life) journey can be deeply transformational AND filled with grace and ease.  And as I put that in writing here it feels pretty heroic.  I'm ready to let go of the hero story now. 

I some times tried to hold on to balance with a death grip while searching for the one technique that would magically teach me how to hold what was, is and will be.  I learned if I don't fight to hold on so tightly, was, is and will be can settle into a nice balance all on it's own.  I'm ready to let go of that struggle because of you.   

Because of you I've fallen in love with myself all over again.  Through my inner work with the elemental make up of my astrological signs, I gained a deep appreciation for how all of the separate pieces of me struggled to be acknowledged, heard and treasured. I gained tools and skills to become the CEO of my life valuing the input of each sign.  Each time I choose to stand in that leadership position I come away with a deep compassion for myself.  I can't wait to share that gift with others. 

This is just a small sampling of what you've taught me and what I'll be taking with me, 43.  I'm very grateful for being here and open to your gifts and as I leave you behind, I can't wait to see what 44 has in store for me. 

Blessings to the new me,

Dionne

I wrote these words during my morning journaling time as I pondered on where to find inspiration for the next project I'm working on (coming in February) and I thought perhaps you needed to hear this too.  For more nuggets of insight and encouragement sign up for my newsletter.

Last night as I sat by my fire and tended the flame on these candles I realized I didn't kick it!  So I'm doing another double today connecting the word associations with wishes.  And I thought I write the wishes in the form of a blessing to all who take a moment to read this post.




1.  River~ May the river of your emotions run freely and smoothly releasing all that has past so you may be present with what is true for you.


2.  Fresh~ May you breath in fresh perspectives and visions of how you can bring your deepest dreams into being.


3.  Escape~  May those dreams escape the grasp of fear and doubt so they may shine a light for the rest of us to be encouraged and inspired by.


4.  Moment~  May you remember and truly feel you have everything you need in this moment.


5.  Night~  May the journey into the longest night revel treasures rooted within you awaiting your attention.  May you bring these treasure to the light.  


And So It Is.