Reminder from my Inner High Priestess~self

This morning I woke up with a memory on my mind from a what seems like a life time ago when I was a maiden priestess living in Italy.

While living there, I became an aerobic instructor. 

As I started out, I didn’t charge anything.  I only had 4-5 participants so I thought it was no big deal.

I had to workout anyway and besides...who would come if I charged?

Being on a small military post (there were maybe 2000 soldiers and family members total) word of mouth spread about my class.

Soon I had a class full of participants~15-20 per class but I still didn’t charge the $5 per class price because I didn’t feel my gifts were worth the price. 

Even though I paid for insurance, my certification, CPR classes, bought all my music, and showed up early to set up the room for classes, I still didn’t feel my gifts were good enough. 

I didn’t feel I was good enough.

This went on for months...and I got burned out.  Finally, I decided to charge. Only because I needed new music and just $2 per class. 

I tied my worth to that price tag.  You know what happened? 

People stopped showing up.

I was devastated.  I beat myself up for even thinking about charging.  How dare I put a value on my work!

Because I didn’t value my gifts or my work from the beginning, others didn’t value it either.
 
It took a long while but I came to realize they were mirroring what I felt about myself
and my work!

Looking back at my maiden self, I have so much compassion for her; so unsure of herself, so unsure about her worth, fearful no one would like her if she charged. 

I think about this as I prepare to open the doors to this new part of my business. 
Again I’m faced with valuing my gifts and my work.

Those feelings of fear and unworthiness are coming up again.

The outstanding Goddess Leonie has talked about sacred pricing; price your services and products so that it sustains and enriches you.  This nourishes you and gives you the energy to be able to continue your work. 

I'm all about being nourished.

I believe my inner High Priestess pushed this memory to the surface to remind me to choose something better for myself this time.

So as I put together my workings for The New Temple of Goddess

I will price in a way that feels like I am receiving the same value for what I give to another.

A true energetic exchange.